Being single is not just actually a status for me. I think it's an art of expressing what freedom is. It's been 2 or 3mos since I became a member of SMP (Samahan ng Malalamig ang Pasko) HAHA. yeah! I don't know but, every time na darating ang pasko, nagiging single ako. Sumpa?
Sabi nga nila, masaya daw maging single. And I agree with that. You are free to do whatever you want without asking her permission, you are free to join the BIGLAANG LAKAD of the barkada, free from misunderstandings and most of all, free of heartaches. You agree? me, not at all. Being single is not an assurance that you'll be free from any heartaches. As long as you love that person, and as long as there's pain inside you the moment you remembered the things that you've been through, crushing ang pakiramdam. I can still remember how I took care for my relationship with my ex. I really tried to be perfect. FUCKING PERFECT! I tried to show what really love is, how to handle our relationship with vigilance, how to fixed things when underthings fucked up, Yet, it failed. Perhaps that's life after all. I used to believe that "kahit anong ingat ang gawin mo sa isang bagay, kung di siya para sayo, mawawala pa rin ito." Hmmmmm.. I think I'm still on the process of moving on. It's not easy to forget everything with your ex.
D- Denial
A- Anger
B- Bargaining
D- Depression
A- Acceptance
uh the stages of grief. I think I'm on my way to Acceptance. :)
I'm starting to appreciate simple things around me. I realized how I changed when I am with my ex. Pag talaga nagkakasyota minsan nalilimutan ang barkada eh. HAHAHA! bumabawi naman na ko. They serves as my sanctuary actually. I want also to thank my nursing life kasi ginawa niya kong busy para makapg move on. hehe! gamit na gamit ko ang Defense Mechanisms ko. :))))))
What I really like after trying this kind of experiences, I mean yung after failure, after breakup and so on, it seems like you have another life. A renaissance I mean. Parang pinanganak yung bagong ikaw, that this time, you were smarter, stronger, and versatile than before. And most of all, your relationship with God, your faith, became more intact. Ganun naman talaga siguro ang buhay. It is always a challenge on a day to day basis. What we have to do is to LEARN. Let just be aware of everything. We did't have to know and explore everything. Awareness is enough I think.
