Single

Being single is not just actually a status for me. I think it's an art of expressing what freedom is. It's been 2 or 3mos since I became a member of SMP (Samahan ng Malalamig ang Pasko) HAHA. yeah! I don't know but, every time na darating ang pasko, nagiging single ako. Sumpa?

Sabi nga nila, masaya daw maging single. And I agree with that. You are free to do whatever you want without asking her permission, you are free to join the BIGLAANG LAKAD of the barkada, free from misunderstandings and most of all, free of heartaches. You agree? me, not at all. Being single is not an assurance that you'll be free from any heartaches. As long as you love that person, and as long as there's pain inside you the moment you remembered the things that you've been through, crushing ang pakiramdam. I can still remember how I took care for my relationship with my ex. I really tried to be perfect. FUCKING PERFECT! I tried to show what really love is, how to handle our relationship with vigilance, how to fixed things when underthings fucked up, Yet, it failed. Perhaps that's life after all. I used to believe that "kahit anong ingat ang gawin mo sa isang bagay, kung di siya para sayo, mawawala pa rin ito." Hmmmmm.. I think I'm still on the process of moving on. It's not easy to forget everything with your ex.

D- Denial

A- Anger

B- Bargaining

D- Depression

A- Acceptance

uh the stages of grief. I think I'm on my way to Acceptance. :)

I'm starting to appreciate simple things around me. I realized how I changed when I am with my ex. Pag talaga nagkakasyota minsan nalilimutan ang barkada eh. HAHAHA! bumabawi naman na ko. They serves as my sanctuary actually. I want also to thank my nursing life kasi ginawa niya kong busy para makapg move on. hehe! gamit na gamit ko ang Defense Mechanisms ko. :))))))

What I really like after trying this kind of experiences, I mean yung after failure, after breakup and so on, it seems like you have another life. A renaissance I mean. Parang pinanganak yung bagong ikaw, that this time, you were smarter, stronger, and versatile than before. And most of all, your relationship with God, your faith, became more intact. Ganun naman talaga siguro ang buhay. It is always a challenge on a day to day basis. What we have to do is to LEARN. Let just be aware of everything. We did't have to know and explore everything. Awareness is enough I think.

GOD GAVE ME YOU :)

For all the times I felt cheated, I complained

You know how I love to complain

For all the wrongs I repeated, though I was to blame

I still cursed that rain

I didn't have a prayer, didn't have a clue

Then out of the blue

God gave me you to show me what's real

There's more to life than just how I feel

And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes

And all that I live for though I didn't know why

Now I do, 'cause God gave me you

For all the times I wore my self pity like a favorite shirt

All wrapped up in that hurt

For every glass I saw, I saw half empty

Now it overflows like a river through my soul

From every doubt I had, I'm finally free

I truly believe

God gave me you to show me what's real

There's more to life than just how I feel

And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes

And all that I live for though I didn't know why

Now I do, 'cause God gave me you

In your arms I'm someone new

With ever tender kiss from you

Oh must confess

I've been blessed

God gave me you to show me what's real

There's more to life than just how I feel

And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes

And all that I live for though I didn't know why (didn't know why)

Now I do (I finally do), 'cause God gave me you (God gave me You)

God gave me you

--Hi panget! isa to sa mga kantang favorite ko introduced by Harry. Gusto ko ipaalam at ishare sayo to syempre.. nagandahan ako e. nakarelate kasi. :)

Siguro this could serve as musical story of my/our love life. kasi I'm considering that God really gave me you. ang galing nuh? we have the same age and the same birthday with the same date (18) of our monthsarry.

sabi ko nga..

"Everyday that passes by, my mind never impedes to think of you.. You're the reason of my every hour. You are my every minute."

familiar ba? quote ko yan na naGM ko na dati pa. HAHA! ginawa ko yan para sayo eh.

andme na nagdaan babe. andme mo na rin gnawa na nagpasaya sken nang sobra na ikw lang ang makakagawa.. isa na dun yung binigyan mko nang bulaklak dati HAHA. dko man tinanggap yun that time, pero napasaya mo ko nun nang sobra. One sweet thing about you pa eh yung pag ummuwi ka galing manila tapos kung ano2 yang dala mo para sakin. :)) kinikilig ako. :3

Madalas tayo magaway nun, kahit naman ngayun eh. hehe. I just wanna say thank you for those time na hindi na umaayaw na ko, di ka pa rin sumuko. kahit snasabi ko ng ayuko na talaga. Wala naman kasing perfect sa mundo. and I've been loving you since then with your imperfections. Magsosorry din pala ako kasi alm ko madalas naiinis ka na sakin, but you always choose to be silent.

All I can say, andito ako. Hanggat kaya ko. usapan nga natin db walang susuko. Thankful talaga ko kasi binigay ka ni God sakin, (teary eyed). MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA BABE. ngayun ko lang ulit sasbihin to. I LOVE YOU IN THE MOST ULTIMATE SENSE. at alam kong alm mo yan. Happy Birthday and Happy 4th Monthsarry babe! Diman tayo mkpgsama tom kasi may pasok, bahala na. If there's a will, ttheres a way. Take care babe ko. hmwah!

- Babe18 :)